I woke up this morning with numb fingertips. I would put it down to sleeping on my hand funny except it was both hands and its happened a couple of times the past few months so I’ve made a doctors appointment.
The way I see it its either
So tomorrow I will most likely become a human pin-cushion. Fun fun.
Productivity is not one of my strong points.
I mean I *can* do it. But its haphazard at best, and when I get depressed its the first thing to go.
I recently read Getting Things Done and it all made sense to me, I’ve tried to implement the whole system thingy but that stuff isn’t really the hard bit for me.
I now have a series of really well organized to-do lists, organized by context and with actions rather than abstract titles. That’s all good. I’ve even made sure there is as little resistance as possible to do the tasks. I know where all my material is. I have little post-it notes on all the pages in the text book that contain uni work I have to do. I’ve got the problem numbers circled so I can do the questions even if I don’t have my tute sheet with me.
But that is all useless if you then sit with the book next to you, write a title at the top of the page, write the first question number and then… Sit and stare at the book. Completely unable to get ‘into’ doing the actual work. Its ridiculous because its not a laziness thing. I am happy to work really really hard at something. Its a mood thing and in certain moods I’m a complete write-off.
Any hints???
In case you haven’t noticed I’m not exactly the most mentally stable person in the world. Basically I’m a little bi-polar, a little bit obsessive-compulsive (when I was a kid I *had* to blink every time we went past a light pole in the car… Actually I still do that sometimes) , and I have a lot of ADHD. Actually I have a feeling that most of these are rather linked given there is such thing as Obsessive-Compulsive ADHD and Bi-polar is a common co morbid disorder with ADHD.
Anyways…
Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been a little on the depressed side so to those of you who actually see me on a day to day basis that’s why I’ve been acting kinda weird, and to those who haven’t its some kind of explanation for why I tend to go through periods of posting ALL the time and then posting nothing for ages.
And just so you know, no need to be worried about me with the whole depression thingy. I’m past the worst of it.
If anyone cares enough to wonder why I haven’t posted in several days its because I’m totally unmotivated at the moment.
Gotta love the way those serotonin levels just drop away when you least expect it.
Miriam Parkinson 