I never really considered this an option before mostly through a combination of what’s the point and ack! its a camera! sort of vibes, but that confounded Cameron Reilly, personally responsible (along with Richard Giles) for this atrocity of a blog you are currently reading, has got me thinking about the whole thing.
It is in some ways an interesting idea and I’m sure it would be a load of fun. I’d even most likely be able to get the hang of the whole camera thing and stop being self-conscious about the sound of my own voice on tape. But there is one major stumbling block. I don’t really have anything to say. I mean yeah I could pad out a couple of shows with discussions about bisexuality and the changing social views towards bdsm. But I don’t really think I’m capable of coming up with interesting content on a regular basis.
See, I’m one of those people who self-censor (yes I know everyone who was at the TPN dinner are currently rolling on the floor laughing at that). What I mean by this is that I censor my creative ideas. When I was a musician I would take ages to write a simple melody because I’d only get a bar in before I decided it was crap and deleted it, in english creative writing I would decide that every idea I had was bad.
Just unconvinced that I’m up to the challenge and being a perfectionist, I am hence reluctant to try.