Comments on: Disturbing Dreams http://miriamparkinson.com/2007/01/disturbing-dreams/ Wed, 08 Jun 2011 07:03:35 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: Colin http://miriamparkinson.com/2007/01/disturbing-dreams/comment-page-1/#comment-165 Colin Thu, 11 Jan 2007 23:59:00 +0000 http://mparkinson.wordpress.com/2007/01/09/disturbing-dreams/#comment-165 Nowadays I let emotional pain wash through me, with a little help from Pink Floyd - played loud! But really I don't get so much pain these days, since after much counselling I discovered that feeling emotional pain was a choice I made, so I essentially choose not to feel it. Or at least not to get really wound up about it. You can't avoid emotional pain if you're human!<br /><br />However, the time I got myself into a real mess, I started off with alcohol (and music), then moved to alcohol and drugs (and music), and then went cold turkey on the alcohol (after spending 20 minutes in a bottle shop reading all the labels to find which had the highest alcohol content - oops!)<br /><br />This was good for, oh, 12 months, during which time I was mainly just miserable (and lost a lot of weight - woohoo!), but then it all came back with a vengeance, so I simply decided to top myself - but failed. Obviously.<br /><br />That was when I decided that being a tough bloke was insufficient, and I sought counselling. Best thing I ever did. Never looked back, and now I have the tools to cope in the future.<br /><br />Of course, having a good friend to lean on helps enormously, but often it is the sudden lack of this friend that is causing the pain, so then you're on your own. Nowadays I let emotional pain wash through me, with a little help from Pink Floyd – played loud! But really I don’t get so much pain these days, since after much counselling I discovered that feeling emotional pain was a choice I made, so I essentially choose not to feel it. Or at least not to get really wound up about it. You can’t avoid emotional pain if you’re human!

However, the time I got myself into a real mess, I started off with alcohol (and music), then moved to alcohol and drugs (and music), and then went cold turkey on the alcohol (after spending 20 minutes in a bottle shop reading all the labels to find which had the highest alcohol content – oops!)

This was good for, oh, 12 months, during which time I was mainly just miserable (and lost a lot of weight – woohoo!), but then it all came back with a vengeance, so I simply decided to top myself – but failed. Obviously.

That was when I decided that being a tough bloke was insufficient, and I sought counselling. Best thing I ever did. Never looked back, and now I have the tools to cope in the future.

Of course, having a good friend to lean on helps enormously, but often it is the sudden lack of this friend that is causing the pain, so then you’re on your own.

]]> By: The Rooster http://miriamparkinson.com/2007/01/disturbing-dreams/comment-page-1/#comment-164 The Rooster Thu, 11 Jan 2007 06:12:00 +0000 http://mparkinson.wordpress.com/2007/01/09/disturbing-dreams/#comment-164 I respect the fact that you have talked about yourself so honestly.<br /><br />Personally, I have had my own torments as we all have and I deal with those as best I can. It gets easier as I get older and I learn that it matters less what others think. I worry a lot about what people think about me and being accepted. Basic human need I guess.<br /><br />Weird I hardly ever remember my dreams. I think it is because I don't sleep much - about 4-6 hours a night if I am lucky. I respect the fact that you have talked about yourself so honestly.

Personally, I have had my own torments as we all have and I deal with those as best I can. It gets easier as I get older and I learn that it matters less what others think. I worry a lot about what people think about me and being accepted. Basic human need I guess.

Weird I hardly ever remember my dreams. I think it is because I don’t sleep much – about 4-6 hours a night if I am lucky.

]]> By: miriam http://miriamparkinson.com/2007/01/disturbing-dreams/comment-page-1/#comment-163 miriam Wed, 10 Jan 2007 23:25:00 +0000 http://mparkinson.wordpress.com/2007/01/09/disturbing-dreams/#comment-163 To a certain extent I don't. It's not really healthy but its better than scarring myself up any further. Pain has been my release for as long as I can remember so its hard to move on from. <br />Colin helps me a lot though. To a certain extent I don’t. It’s not really healthy but its better than scarring myself up any further. Pain has been my release for as long as I can remember so its hard to move on from.
Colin helps me a lot though.

]]> By: Cameron Reilly http://miriamparkinson.com/2007/01/disturbing-dreams/comment-page-1/#comment-162 Cameron Reilly Wed, 10 Jan 2007 22:49:00 +0000 http://mparkinson.wordpress.com/2007/01/09/disturbing-dreams/#comment-162 The cutting is interesting. I've only done that once. And it wasn't with a blade. It was with a rubber band. One of those large red rubber bands. During a particularly tumultuous break-up I flicked myself in the fleshy part of the top of my hand between the thumb and forefinger with the rubber band under I bled profusely. The physical pain distracted me for a while from the emotional pain. But the emotional pain always comes back. What do you do now to deal with the emotional pain? The cutting is interesting. I’ve only done that once. And it wasn’t with a blade. It was with a rubber band. One of those large red rubber bands. During a particularly tumultuous break-up I flicked myself in the fleshy part of the top of my hand between the thumb and forefinger with the rubber band under I bled profusely. The physical pain distracted me for a while from the emotional pain. But the emotional pain always comes back. What do you do now to deal with the emotional pain?

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